I can’t seem to shake a feeling of unsettledness. I wonder if this is even a word. Yet, nothing else seems to capture my feelings on this Day 2 of 2013.
It has been a feeling creeping around me for some time. I just feel unsettled. It is beginning to make me feel uncomfortable – like I need to do something about it.
I try to ignore it.
I try to bury it with “good thoughts”.
I try to pray about it.
I try to speak it out loud hoping that my loved one will understand.
I try to rationalize it.
I try to busy myself at home thinking if I order my home the feeling will go away.
Yet, it doesn’t.
Then I read 1 Corinthians 13, The Love Chapter, this morning. I saw something in this chapter that I have never seen before.
Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away….For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. (1 Cor. 13:8-10, 12)
These words soothe me. I still feel unsettled, yet I know there is something here for me. Something to grab onto, and find Hope in. For now, I accept feeling unsettled. I won’t deny it, but rest in it, believing there is something for me to learn.